Wednesday, November 9, 2016

Changes

So, looks like we have decided to put Eden into public school.
We knew it was headed this direction.
We thought it would happen next year.
But I think we're gonna try to enroll her right away.

You know, I made a million excuses why I did homeschool.
Now I am making a million excuses why I'm putting her in public school.

In the end, it comes down to a story my mom once told me.

While dating Tyson, back in my college years, I had a conversation with my mom not sure where things were going and how to know if he was "the one".  We talked and (from the way I remember it) she told me that while dating my dad she never had a "he's the one" revelation. She instead never felt the spirit tell her "stop, he's NOT the one."

It was a strange sort of confidence she had.

That's how it was with Tyson.

Tyson and I had been dating about three months. I had already broken it off once simply because marriage is a huge commitment that I couldn't commit to....with anyone else.

Then one day I woke up...with at strange sort of confidence.
That morning, I made the decision and nothing said "No. Stop."
So I kept going.
So....naturally, I called Tyson.

Me: "We're getting married."
Tyson: "Woah. No need to rush things. It's ok."

That tactic didn't work.
So I talked to my mother instead.

Me: "Mom, I'm getting married,"
Mom: "Does Tyson know this?"
Me: "I tried to tell him but I don't think he believed me."
Mom: "Maybe you should call him again."

(Dial Tyson)
Me: "We're getting married."
Tyson: "Are you sure?"
Me: "Yep."

That night we went ring shopping.
I was engaged that same night.
Married three months later.

And that's kind of how it felt with homeschool.

One day, when Eden wasn't even old enough for preschool, I chose homeschool.
I had a strange sort of confidence and knew it was the right thing for me.
Perhaps, like my engagement, it was a little more than a decision that was OK with God.
After I let the option into my heart, God gave me confidence that said, "Yes! Do it!"
And for those who know me, confidence isn't my strong point.

Recently, homeschool has been a greater challenge.
So, I asked God his thoughts.
He gave me AND Eden confidence.

All of a sudden I felt at peace with sending Eden to public school.
In fact, I feel confident that it is a good choice.

And before I even mentioned it to Eden, she came up to me and said, "I think I want to go to public school before next year. Can I do that?"

"Yes. Yes you can."

So, yesterday and today I took some quality time to figure out what I'm doing and filling out paperwork.
I want to talk to a few people I know with third grade children first so I don't just go in completely clueless.

Leila still wants to stay the year with me.
I'm ok with that.

Maybe next year. Who knows.

For now, I'm just trying to keep an open mind and heart so God can talk to me more.

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