Homeschool: Letting Go of Control...and Money

Today was a pretty relaxed day.

It was nice.

But my mind has been having an inner debate.

Eden decided that she wants to continue homeschool.  I'm okay with that (and it's definitely nice since we are going on vacation for four months...the joys of homeschool).

But how to homeschool is the issue i am running into.

Even bigger issue, how to homeschool MULTIPLE children at the same time.

I am having a hard time balancing good school for Eden AND Leila and not completely ignoring (as if I can) the other two littles.

I have run into the option of CDs, computer school, etc.

But I have a hard time not being 100% involved. I want to know if they are LEARNING.

I suppose it's hard for me not be in control.

But I have to tell myself that if the girls go to public school I'll also have no control.

Perhaps it's more that I know she'll learn all these things I don't know and so ill have no idea if what she is saying that she learned is true or false....cause I admit, I'm not that smart.

The other issue, money.

Homeschool is expensive. Textbooks come to my doorstep from Amazon and...let's face it...I have no idea what's really inside, if I'll like it, and if the kids will like it.  If I change to CD and computer versions I find myself having to spend MORE money.  Not to mention that I'm pretty sure Eden and Leila have completely different learning styles. So I spend a ton of money on a textbook....or five....hoping it will pay off as I use it for multiple children.  Then things change....

Anyhow, that's what going on in my mind lately.

We'll see what happens.